Life is once again beginning

Hi guys.
Life is as busy and stressful and exhausting as ever, what with high school back in session. I can't say I enjoy it. But I can say that junior year is somewhat more...more....less nerveracking than freshman and sophomore year.
After spending 2 years with these people, I've kinda stopped caring so much about them.
Like, "OH MY GOD SO-AND-SO IS LOOKING AT ME WITH A DIRTY LOOK !!! DOES THIS MEAN SO-AND-SO DOESN'T LIKE ME??? IIII HAAATTTEEEE SCHOOLLL!!"
No, now I'm kinda in my own happy little world, my head in the clouds, and the other people aren't so important anymore.
I'm telling you, this is the way to live.
Okay, well maybe not with your head in the clouds. Because then you'll be like me and never really know what's going on and then you'll feel stupid when your classmates, expecting you to know everything, ask you questions such as "So for number 5, did you get the square root of negative 7 billion and 2?"
"umm..."

It's okay. I'd rather have my head in the clouds than participate in math, anyways.

Plus when you're not caring about other people...you're naturally more yourself. Not only is it refreshing, but it's attractive. Don't ask me why, but there's just something about someone not giving a fuck that makes people want to talk to them... I mean, think about it. You've gotta know at least one person who does their own thing all the time, without giving a shit about what the people around them think. They'll say what they think, and they'll do what they feel.
Now tell me, are you not totally envious of this person?
Because I am.

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The next order of business is that chemistry class can really suck. Especially when your teacher reads your poem in front of the entire class. This isn't just any normal meaningless poem. No, no, no. This is a scripted poem that you really wanted to defy the scripted-ness of. So you took the liberty of going very very deep, and therefore very sappy. Very sappy.
Your teacher reads, "I am the only redhead in my class" and every eye is on you.
Oh no....oh no...FUCK, man, FUCK!!!!
Your teacher continues to read some lines and you bury your face deeper and deeper into your arms as the class gives a chorus of sarcastic "aaaaawwwww"s.

See if I ever write anything again.

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I highly recommend Part 1 of Jack's Mannequin's "MFEO". Talk about emotional perfection.

I would also highly recommend working at my new job, because I find it to be quite enjoyable.

Quite...gaah why do I even use these words??
I know...having friends with extensive vocabularies tends to make you a little more ... extensive-vocabulary-ish.
I know there's a word for that, but I aint that extensive.

Love you all lots and lots,

EmILiA