Where the hell is the sun??

Everything is so awful today.

I hate rainy days. There are few things in this life that I find more woeful a cold, achey, wet dark day. Days like this, I wake up and can tell it's gross outside before I even get out of bed to look out the window. The rain, dark and misery somehow seep into my bones and destroy my mental state from dawn till dusk.


Today was one of those days.

So what did I do? I moped around. A lot. I think my Mom thought I was dying. I wasn't. I wasn't even sick...just abnormally dejected. And I'm blaming the weather. This wretched weather combined with the stress of upcoming finals and all the worry about finishing the school yearbook has made for a very wearisome day.

I tried to get some stuff done. I have enough work to keep me mind-numbingly busy until I graduate. Unfortunately, it was unspeakably difficult to start doing anything. I just couldn't bring myself to focus. I couldn't bring myself to do much of anything at all besides drag myself worthlessly around the house.

I thought today was going to be a strong and productive study day. But instead of trying to memorize key terms for my civil law exams, I did this:

I tore apart my English books. What you see there is 2 1/2 books worth of notes. You'll notice that I'm a very organized person.
Ha ha.

I wish I could have done something more worthwhile today than create a colorful post-it explosion on my desk. It is cool...kind of pretty, actually. I'm just not sure that it's all that worthwhile in helping me avoid painful late-night finals cramming. I'm not sure that it's all that worthwhile...at all.

Well, maybe one of these days I will learn how to prioritize. Maybe someday I will create beautiful and beneficial things and actually do something good with my life. That day, however, will probably not involve any rain.