Onwards

"There are far, far better things ahead than anything we leave behind."

-C.S. Lewis

This is so difficult for me to believe -- that good things lie ahead.
As I mentioned in my last post, I feel like I'm getting quite a bit older. 

Yes, I'm 23.
Yes, "my whole life is ahead of me."
Whatever. 

I miss some of the old things.
And I sure as hell don't like not knowing what comes next.  

I miss old friendships and less responsibilities, having a little more time to do those things I love and not having to deal with quite as much of this running around panicking about how am I going to finish these lesson plans for tomorrow, how am I supposed to have time for these three heaping baskets full of ungraded papers, and, of course, how the hell am I supposed to keep all these damn crazy kids in control? 

Yes, I am only 23.  But life has become significantly more difficult.  

I know it's important to embrace the future, let go of things in the past that no longer exist and, well, just to live today.

Isn't today enough?  

I suppose so.  

I'ts just that today can be a real bitch sometimes.    

And if today's such a bitch, what does tomorrow look like? 

That being said...onwards, I guess.