One of the reasons why writing can be difficult...

Call me stupid, but every time I write in here I get this twinge that writing anything here at all is a total waste of time.

Well, it is...
but it's a good waste of time, you know?
A productive kind of waste of time.

I could be like...doing homework, but instead I'm writing blogs that no one will ever read!! Nice trade, right?

Hmmm.

But the reason that I keep writing (this is going to sound conceited) is because I love my own voice. Not my physical voice. But the voice in my head, which is often louder.
(QUOTE: "Writing is a socially acceptable form of schizophrenia" --E.L. Doctorow)

I've heard tiny voices so many times telling me to quit...don't write, it's pointless, it's hard, it's difficult to read later (and it really is sometimes), and why the hell would I write about my boring life??
I was really close a couple months ago to throwing all my notebooks into the fireplace....
And OH. MY. GOD, would that have been disastrous!!

My notebooks are like...they're like the coolest thing I've ever done! Of course sometimes when I read some of the stuff I wrote before, I really can't believe what an idiot I was (am).
But still. Regardless. It is the most priceless thing I really have, and lately I've gotten SO into writing...just writing about my life. About the shit that goes on. And sometimes I think it turns out SO GOOD....I think it's good at least....It still makes me emotional, lol, so there's at least SOME point in it.


Now if you'll notice, I've posted a video below. (YouTube is one of the best internet inventions EVER.)

Now this song is one of my new favorites, and the celebration of me just figuring out how to put youtube videos on a webpage...quite easy if you know how to copy and paste!!)

But oh my god I've been sitting at the damn computer for like 20 minutes. How time flies when you are staring into the face of cyberspace ...

I've really got to get to that homework that I've been thinking about for the past 2 1/2 hours.
...Sigh....
Thanks for reading and play my song!!! ---->


Kisses, Emily